Three Days~ Smile

Delana's Home~Day Two

Delana is home. It seems strange being at home, something is missing..... the Daddy! I still can't believe she is finally here.

Madison is in love and wants to play with Delana. She went upstairs and got a few of the baby toys and laid a blanket out, put the toys on it. Of course I had to tell herr that she will not be doing much playing for awhile.

Going Home~Day Two

We are finally on our way home! Delana had to stay extra night since we were waiting for the results of her 48 hr culture to come back. Negitive! Janey (my sil) came and got us. She has been a God send, helping me out with everything.

One Day Old

Delana with family friends, Wayne and Jayme. Jayme drove me to the hospital, she was only speeding a little. She didn't have to deliver the baby. LOL

I little interesting bit o' news: they babysat Madison when Paul returned from the deployment last year...... Now we have Delana :-)

Delana Day~Birthday

Big Sister Maddie meeting Delana.

Look at my baby.

Delana Grace

Delana Grace is here!!! On August 27th, the day before my induction was scheduled I went to bed around 10:00 so that I could get a good night rest since I knew that it would be a long time before I would get a good night sleep since I would have a baby the next night. Or at least be in the hosptial, which still would not be a good night sleep. I had wrote Paul and told him the plan. I said I am being induced tomorrow night this is not going to happen on it's own so I'm going to get one good night of sleep. He was like don't say that it could still happen.

At 10:30 I woke up to pee and had a horrible cramp but I went back to sleep. HOWEVER at 11:00 I woke up with a horrible cramp that wasn't going away. It was a lot of pressure and everytime I felt that pressure I had the urge to number two. I was like this might be it. I went downstair since Maddie was sleeping in my bed and I didn't want to wake her. I also wanted to use a contraction counter that I found online to count contrations. I started counting the contractions a little after 11:00. By 1:30 am the cramps were only about 4 minutes apart and I decided it was a good idea to call my "crew". I called my two friends and sister-in-law, they were all here at the same time. My sister in law took Maddie to her house and we were off to the hospital. We started driving and the contractions were horrible. I was thinking I can't believe that I had prayed for this... to go into labor on my own and be in all this pain. But I was now on way to the hospital. I was giving directions on how to get there... "let's take the toll road, it's faster." We stopped and paid the toll and we were off. Jayme was telling me to breathe. I couldn't breath it hurt too much. I was watching the clock, they were coming three minutes apart from what I could tell. We made it to the hospital and we had to show our IDs (military hospital), then I was like Allison doesn't have an ID so Jayme yelled back to tell them she was with us. We rolled up to the ER and they got a wheel chair. I couldn't get out of the van because I was in so much pain and I was telling them that. Allison was like you are going to have pain so you have to get out. Alright I was out and we were on the way to labor and delievery and the sky walk seem to be a mile long. I yelled at the guy pushing the wheelchair...... "can we go a little faster?" We went a little faster but it still seem like we were moving slow but I remember seeing Jayme walking quickly next to me. We finally made it to L&D. They got me in a room and I was filling out paper work while I was having contrations which was annoying me. They finally checked me and I was 9cm. I thought they said 6cm and was thinking it would never end but 9... wooo whoo. I was so close! They ended up breaking my water. It was time to push. The baby's heart rate had dropped and they said we have to get her out. In six contractions she was out. OUCH! OMG.... I did it! Thank you GOD, I did it! Delana was here and I did it, I got to have the VBAC that I had been praying for six and a half years. My body did it! God was with me and he heard my request...... my baby came into the world the way that I had prayed that she would come. The way God had designed them to come. All the hate I had for my body for letting me down with Madison's birth melted away. I loved my body, myself and was thankful for this experience. My hubby wasn't there but God provided me with people to be with me and support me. As I was getting stiches all of this was running through my mind. I'm truly blessed. I'm so thankful for the ones who have been praying for me and the birth, the ones who were at the birth.

*** A side note. When Paul and I were trying to pick a date to be induced it was today.... September 7th! However I can't image waiting this long for her to be here. Also I will be back dating this entry to the day Delana was born... August 28th. Today she is 10 days old! :)

Induction.... SCHEDULED

I'm overdue....... GREAT. I went to the doctor on Monday morning, the day before my dute date knowing that I would be scheduling an indcution date. Which I was hoping to advoid but apparently I can't since this kid doesn't want to come out. Even all the praying, walking, swimming and even having my membranes stripped is not making her want to come out! My doctor asked me if I wanted to come in to be induced the next day, my due date. NO.... I really really want this to happen on it's own. I feel like have to give it a little more time to happen. So I scheduled an appointment for September 1st. On August 25th my due date my friend who is a ob nurse at my hospital calls me at 2000 (8:00 pm) to see if I want to come in and be induced at 2100 (9:00 pm) that night! Ah no..... I was actually thinking about it but I would have to call at least three people to arrange this type of thing. If my hubby were home I would have discussed it with him and probably did it because I wouldn't have to call all the other people. So I turned that down and agreed to come in on Friday night. I was super excited until I hung up the phone and then I was a mess. It's not going to happen on it's own.... AGAIN! I'm totally annoyed with my body because it's NOT doing what it should be, which is to get this baby out without me having to be drugged up. Wednesday night I was fine with it. This morning I'm just frustrated! As crazy as it sounds this is part of the reason for waiting 6 years to have another kid, I did not want to have this dissappointment again. I know that a lot of people don't think it's a big deal to be incuded but I DO! It's not what I want. I have always wanted a natural birth and it's not going to happen. It happens for others but not for me. People are like you still end up with a healthy baby in the end be happy. I will be happy...... smiling on the outside and feeling like I failed yet again on the inside.

Tooth Gone

Appointment Tomorrow

I have an appointment tomorrow with my ob. I'm looking forward to the appointment to see if anything has changed in the last two weeks. At my last appointment I was told I was 2-3 cm and 25% effaced. Last week I walked a lot and cleaned a lot....... that had to do something, right? I'll find out tomorrow. I still can't believe that I'm going to the appointment tomorrow, I really thought I would have had the baby by now. My plan is to go to the appointment tomorrow and I have already decided that I'm having my membranes stripped. It's not going to hurt anything to try and there a chance it will do nothing. After my appointment I'm thinking I will walk. Of course I if my doctor recommends it since my feet are so swollen right now. Ouchie! Today that look horrible.

I'm questioning the name again. Yet I can't say that I have a name I really like but I don't feel like the name we have choosen is right. I have talked to my hubby around it and he has told me that I can decide what to name her after she is born. Whatever I decide he says will be fine. It seems so weird because I am the one who insisted on picking the name before he left and now I'm the one who is talking about using something new. We will see what happens when this little one finally arrives. I know that she will be here in about fourteen days or less for sure now. I'm ready....... really I am! Maddie asks me everyday if she will come today. I don't know honey, she will be here when she is ready to be... when God's ready. {It's taking a long time.} I am very much looking forward to meeting this little one and more so looking forward to Maddie becoming a big sister. I'm also looking forward to us reuniting with Paul. It will be so nice to have our family together again with our newest member.

Countdown Say Seven Days

My due date calucaltor says I have seven days until my due date. I'm beginning to think it will never end. My next doctor's appointment is on August 24th and I have decided that I'm going to have my membranes stripped at that appointment. I could have had it done last appointment or a few days later but I really kind of wanted to see if it would work itself out. Appearently not! I'm so exhausted! I'm totally ready to meet my little girl. I'm ready to get back to being me. I'm keep thinking I just want to be able to move comfortably and have more energy. I'm sure I will not have as much energy as I think since I will be sleep deprived but right now I'm getting to the point where I do one little thing I and feel like I need a nap. In a week things could change so much. However it could also end up being more like three weeks. I have also decided to schedule an induction at my next appointment since my doctor told me would were going to discuss it. I asked my husband to pick a day sometime between September 1st and September 8th. Whatever day he picks will be the day that I try to schedule the induction, of course it has to work out with my doctors schedule. Right now I'm just praying that she makes her appearance before the next appointment.... which I'm not thinking will happen. I'm praying that she makes her appearance before the induction at least. Well here's to waiting.

A verse comes to mind:

We also have joy with our troubles, because we know that these troubles produce patience. And patience produces character, and character produces hope.

~Romans 5:3-5 NCV

Getting Closer

I'm getting close to my due date now... only 10 days away. Surprisingly I'm still pretty relaxed. Mainly just waiting to see how this is going to unfold. I keep thinking that I will go into labor in the middle of the night and have to call all the ladies who will be in on the big event. To me that is stressful, I really hate to talk on the phone and two I would be waking people up. I know they are not going to care and will probably be excited but the thought of calling people in the middle of the night still kind of freaks me out. I have been having irregular contractions through out the day. They will come for a little and then go away. I keep thinking that it means nothing, I did have irregular contractions with Madison but never had them regular until I was induced. I'm trying to think of this as an experience of it's own and try not to compare it to my pregnancy with Madison but it's been hard.

My next appointment is on August 24th the day before my due date. I know that I will be given the option to have my membranes stripped that day and the doctor will also be discussing induction that day too. I still haven't completely decided what to do yet. My friend from church who will be going to the hospital when I go into labor keeps reminding that God timing will be perfect, it's in his hands and he has a plan. I believe that and also question that seeing that it didn't happen on it's own with Madison. I'm going to talk with her this week and see what her opinion is, sometimes hearing what other people think make me realize what my opinion clear even when it doesn't match theirs. As of right now I'm thinking I might have my membranes stripped on the August 24th and talk about doing the induction around September 7th or 8th. Yep, that is going into 42 weeks but I'm willing to wait to see if it happens on it's own. I went to 41 weeks with Madison so I could make it one more week. In the end the wait will be worth it when I'm holding my lil girl. When I see my daughter holding her little sissy.... it will be totally worth the wait, no matter how long the wait.

Chatting with My Honey

Paul was able to get online this morning so we could IM each other. We both had our web cams working too which made it nice even if I couldn't hear him talk it was nice to see him. I asked him if he could take a picture of himself for Madison since she is at school. Two days ago she was crying and really upset, "What does Daddy look like now? What if he doesn't look like Daddy?" I told her he looks the same and that I would see if he could send her a picture. So hopefully she will feel better when she sees this picture of Daddy and he looks like DADDY!

On another note...... this morning I when into Maddie's room to wake her up. I called her name a few times and rubbed her back and she didn't really want to get up. I pulled her blanket down a little and I see a strand of hair..... it kind of looks like Babie hair. (Last night when I was tucking her in she told me she held up one of her dolls and said she wanted to get rid of that doll cause her hair was yucky. I said we will do it in the morning.) Then I start to pull the blanket down more and I fine more hair... and more hair.... and some on the floor. YEP.... this is her hair. I'm then yell at her to wake up, "what is all this hair all over? DID YOU CUT YOUR HAIR LAST NIGHT?" I'm furious and crying...... why did you do that.... why? I put her in the tub and wash her hair since it was a rats nest........ more hair was coming out. And I'm still bawling my eyes out. "Your hair, your beautiful hair........" Since her hair was pretty long it doesn't seem to be really all that noticeable. I ask her again why she cut it and she tells me.. "Because there is a knot in it." Right now I debating about getting it cut shorter to help blend it a little. I still really don't know how bad it looks since it was wet when she left this morning. I will find out soon.

38 Weeks

Two weeks to go to my due date. That really doesn't seem long but when you add in the fact that you can go over due that sure makes it seem long. It could be as long a four weeks now and that seems like forever. I was really hoping to go into labor yesterday, pretty much everything would have been good. My doctor was on call, my hubby would have been able to call me easily, I was completely ready and relaxed. However this morning things are a different story. I can't believe that I actually thought that I would go into labor on my own before my due date, two weeks before my due date. It's almost funny to think I thought it could happen. At least that is was I was thinking this morning when I woke up. I was ready yesterday, relaxed and completely at peace with the fact my hubby wouldn't be there holding my hand or at least him to be able to call me soon after. Now I see my chances of that happening disappearing.

I have been keeping the house pretty nice lately in case I went into labor I would be able to come home to a clean house. When I woke up this morning I told myself that I will not be doing that everyday all day now. I have time........ at least two weeks I'm guessing. I'm not going to clean the house everyday and try to keep it looking awesome. I'm going to relax... read a book, watch some tv, and pretty much do what I want. When I get closer to my due date I will start trying to keep the house a little nicer but it could still be a few weeks from there.

Full Term~37 Weeks

Here is the rainbow I have been praying for.

It's going to be a bright bright bright sun shiny day.

I'm now considered full term, meaning that if baby were to arrive this week should be able to thrive. She is gaining weight at about half an ounce per day. Right now probably her weight is probably around six and a half pounds. A half an ounce per day for three more weeks. Hopefully she is here by my due date, I really don't want to go over. I'm thinking that if I go over my odds of having her natural will go down. A little exciting news is that it seems that my plug is starting to come out. I seen a little this morning but that doesn't mean much since I lost it little by little with Maddie starting around 38 weeks. Anyway you look at it... WE ARE ALMOST THERE!

Wonderful Things

"Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; He's the one who will keep you on track."
~Proverbs 3:5, 6 The Message