Adventure of Motherhood

It's Friday and the first week of 1st grade is over! It went very good. Maddie likes her teacher at lot. She really hasn't told me what she does in class. I did discover that they still use touch bumps.... anyone else remember those? It's embarassing to admit but I still catch myself using them. Yep it suck with me! The other thing I managed to find out is that they play on the "big top" as Maddie calls it. I believe that it is really called "black top." According to Maddie today was the best day every... she got to ride the bus home. There is a bus stop right down the road from our house so she is going to ride the bus to school and home. Monday will be her first day riding in the morning. Today was her first day riding at night. I actually went to school and showed her what she will be doing on Monday after class. She got on the bus and I drove over to the bus stop. I was waiting there and the bus wasn't there at the time the schedule says they drop off. I was started to freak out a little. I was about to call and make sure I was at the right place. I was praying the bus would come over the hill with my little girl. I looked up and there it was...... ahhh. She got off and was so excited! Oh my gosh my baby is growing up and it's scary (and exciting).

* I had to post a couple more belly pics so I can remember how the belly looked and so Paul can see too.

28 Days

I'm down to about four weeks to due date. What is kind of funny is that the last trimester has actually been the best part of the whole pregnancy. I feel better now in the last trimester than I did in the first or second. I'm not sick or tired. Surprisingly I have lots of energy and honestly I don't feel pregnant. I know I'm bigger but I feel really good. At the end of the day I sometimes have a harder time get up off the couch but it doesn't compare to the way I was with Maddie. I remember having to have Paul help me up all the time, he tied my shoes the last few months too. I can tie my shoes and paint my toes, I love it. I feel so good... I'm really amazed!

The past few days I have felt kind of yucky... almost like I'm going to start my period. I read that it can be a sign that labor is close. I really don't think I'm super close but closer. I'm thinking that I will go sometime between the 10th and 16th. ( I know you don't like to here that Jane, so I will say 13th to 16th for you.) We will see, the 10th, 11th... on to the 16th might come and go without a baby and I will probably think~"What, where is this baby?" I was really hoping to go over so that the baby would still be as close to newborn as possible so my hubby wouldn't miss out but it's so not going to hope so I just want a baby as soon as possible. I can have the baby and get a routine worked out so it will be easier for us to adjust once he is home. I'm looking forward to homecoming. It's really going to be special, a real teak jerker. Just thinking about it gets me a little teary. Soon it will be time daddy to meet his girl but not yet... soon! We will be together soon but not soon enough..... everyday that passes is one day closer.

1st Grade

Today was Madison first day of 1st grade. I told her she would probably have her own desk. She went into class this morning and TADA... she had her own desk. She was excited to have her own desk and I love their little name tag/pencil holder things. It was a great day and she can't wait to go back tomorrow. She told me that a least five times today. When I tucked her into tonight she said, "I WISH IT WAS TOMORROW ALREADY!"

Gotta Love It

Maddie and I were waiting in line to pay for shoes today. We are standing at the counter while the lady is checking us out and I hear, "Oh my god... look at that... she's gorgeous like a little doll." I'm thinking, what?? The lady leans toward Madison, "Oh my gosh you are just the cutest little doll I have ever seen. AND look at those eyes. Do you look like your mom or dad?" Madison says "I look just like my mom but I have my dad's smile!" Then the lady ask me if I'm working on my third or fourth kid. LOL... I was like this is my second, I finally got brave enough to have another one after five years. "It's a little boy, that will be nice." I have been hearing this for a month now..... oh you are having a boy! "Actually it's a little girl, we had four ultrasounds saying it's a girl..... IT'S A GIRL! I would be MAD if it was a boy.... I have a ton of girl clothes and a girly nursery." Not to mention I'm excited about having two little girls :) I have been having everyone commenting that we are having a boy, even people that I told it was a girl keep saying... it's a boy right? Ahhh nope, girl. A few people have actually questioned me like I really don't know, "Are you sure?" I'm actually very sure, four ultrasounds showing girl parts, boy parts are not going to appear magically.

Belly Pic

I'm posting a new belly pic...

I'm getting so close..... about 4 and a half weeks to go. YAY!!

Countdown is on... 5 Weeks to go

Five weeks to go, I can hardly believe it. I wonder if I will make it five weeks... will she come early or will she be late. I can tell that she is running out of room, the past few days she has been in my ribs. Ouch. It's been pretty uncomfortable. I'm having a hard time doing things that were easier to do last week. It's uncomfortable to sit up straight because she is in my ribs. The other reason I know she is growing is because I can actually see my belly moving. Yesterday she was moving a lot. I can tell what side she is on because one side of my tummy is larger than the other. I love watching her moving around, I totally remember laying in the bath tub with Maddie watching my belly moving around.

Appointment Update for 34 weeks

The appointment went well. My op report came back, I had a c-section with a low transverse incision with Madison, so that means I meet all the criteria for a VBAC (vaginal birth after c-section). I signed the consent form while I was at the appointment. I said was was going to try to attempt a trail of labor instead of a repeat c-section. I really want to try. I know that it would probably be easier if I had the repeat cesarean vesus being in labor a few hours then having to have a cesarean. I really want to try. I know there is a chance that it will not work but I can at least say I tried. I'm taking a small risk and praying that God will be with me and the baby no matter how it works out.

I was leaking some fluid and the doctor wanted to check it to make sure it wasn't amniotic fluid, it wasn't. She also did an ultrasound to check and see how much fluid I had, "a lot" is what she said so that's good. When she was doing the ultrasound she pointed out all the body parts to Maddie. Delana was head down, yay! I assumed that since I can already feel the pressure of her little head pushing on my cervic. I mentioned that concern to the doctor because I was having a lot of pressure down there and she said it's good. Yep, that's what I was thinking. Then of course on to the really serious stuff. She said that I could have my membrains scrapped at my next appointment to try to get things rolling. That would be Aug 7th. YIKES! I asked how long I could go without having to have anything done... right up to 41-42 weeks. I could be incuded with pitocin which is very scary to me. I was incuded with Maddie at 41 weeks and 1 day and they used pitocin. Ouch! All I can say is if I have to do it again I will get the epi.

I didn't write about the appointment yesterday because I was freaking out a little about the above. I can't discuss any of it will my husband. I did tell him the whole speal and he said he was praying for me. I wish I had someone to discuss all the choices with and decide what is the best course of action. In a sense I do.... God. I'm leaving it all in your hands. There's not much I can do expect pray, so that's what I'll do. It's crazy to think that in three short weeks I could be so close to having my little girl here. (Deep breath.) I'm going to do a little research on scrapping membrains, I know what it is and I'm going to see if it seems to be successful and how long it takes to work if it's going to work. I feel like I need to be educated on things that I might have to do. So soon you will be seeing "Delana has arrived"... probably later rather than sooner.

Belly Pics

I'm 34 weeks and 2 days, here's a look at the belly.

Tomorrow will be my 34 weeks appointment. I'm looking forward to seeing how Delana is doing. I'm not looking forward to getting weighed because I'm pretty sure I gained about five pounds since my last appointment which I guess isn't too bad since it was four weeks ago. I will post what I find out tomorrow.

Back to School Shopping

Madison starts school on July 27th I needed to get her some new clothes to update her uniform collection. She grew a lot last year and so we have about four dresses that didn't fit and some skirts that didn't fit. I got her six skirts that are make from sweat pants material, those are the ones she liked wearing the most last year. We also got two skirts that are pleated cotton and a little dressier and three white blouses to go with them. In addition to the clothes we picked up some accessories like pink poka dot leggings to wear under the dresses, tights, and a few hair accessories. So now the uniforms are ready to go, I already have them washed. I just need to go though her uniform drawer and take out the stuff that is too small.

Maddie picked out her back pack and lunch box. Right now she has everything she needs to start school. Anything else we need we will get after she starts school. She has a home work box from last year and we are just adding to it. The only thing we need is school glue. She is ready to go back since she told me "oh I can't wait to go to school, I wish I was starting tomorrow."

34 Week

In the last week I have really started to show, according to my friends from church. They seen me on Wednesday night and then on Saturday night and they said I looked bigger in just those couple of days. In addition to looking bigger I have also started feeling some pressure down there. A little tingling once in awhile. I really don't remember feeling like that with Maddie. Sometimes am tummy feels a little puky or yucky. I'm really thinking there I'm only going to end up going about 4 to 4 1/2 weeks more. We will see what happens though. Since I have been feeling the tingling and pressure I am getting really excited about my appointment to see if anything is actually going on. It's still a little early but you never know. I was a two for a few weeks with Maddie. So I'm really looking forward to my appointment on Friday.

Delana's skin is on longer reddish but has a pinkish glow to it. Her finger nail are probably quiet long but her toenails are still growing. She is around 5 pounds and total length is around 19.5 inches.

*The picture is one from 29 weeks. I love know what she looks like, it's amazing.
I will try to post a picture of my huge belly this week, maybe from the day I go to the doctor.

Maddie

Tick Tock...

I keep thinking about my next doctor's appointment, July 17th. I will be 34 and a half weeks at my appointment and I'm hoping my doctor checks me to see if I'm making any progress. My last appointment was June 17th and it seems like it is taking forever to get to the next appointment. I waiting to hear you are dilated and effaced to..... Of course, I still have to have the ok for a VBAC. At my last appointment they had me fill out the paper work to request my op report for my c-section with Maddie. I have to make sure everything checks out before I'm okayed for a VBAC. If I'm told that I have to have a c-section because of something on the op report I'm going to be disappointed because I have been told this whole time I should be able to have a VBAC and then all of a sudden they realized they never ordered the op report to know for sure I was cleared. That is something I would like to know soon rather than later. Honestly I think that it will show that I'm safe for attempting a VBAC. If not I guess I'm just not supposed to have a VBAC. (Easier to say than think.) Either way I'll get my little girl. So in about a week hopefully I'll know what is going on with Delana and the VBAC.

Seven Weeks and Counting

Seven weeks to go until I meet my little Delana! (Yep, we are keeping the name.) My countdown tells me I have 49 days until my due date. The end is in sight now... I will be holding my little Laney Bug before I know it. Which makes me start thinging about my mental checklist:

Do I have the phone numbers I will need on my cell (birthing coaches and babysitters) and a list a home? NOPE. I do have to numbers laying here and there. I keep thinking that I NEED to put them on my cell. And keep the cell charged. You know just in case I have to call one of them. It would really suck if I had to call when I'm out and I didn't have their numbers.

Do I have a bag packed or slightly packed to bring to the hospital? NOPE. I did buy a bag to bring to the hospital since the only smaller bag is with Paul. I have a mental list of what I need to pack. I'm thinking that maybe I will do some packing today. (I have the diaper bag packed.)

Do I have what I need at home for when we come home? YES! I actually am prepared in this area.

• All baby blankets, burp clothes, towels, and clothes 0-3 months are washed and put away.
• I have diapers and wipes. I even have one package of newborn since we didn't buy newborn for Madison because I thought she would be to big for them. Come to find out she needed them so we had to stop at Walmart after we left the hospital.
• I'm nursing so I do not need fomula. I do have bottles in case I want to pump and store milk. I also have a Boppy pillow because I found that it was a lifesaver with Madison. Plus it will come in handy when Maddie wants to hold Delana.
• I have a cradle in my room. I think that I'm going to be very grateful for that cradle. I also picked up a travel Boppy swing that I'm thinking I will keep in my room. Plus it's little enough I can move it around the house if I need it in another room.

I'm pretty sure that's all I need for once I get home. I have been thinking about home more than the hospital and the labor/delivery. The labor and delivery part is scary to think about. I don't know what will happen and that is as scary as it gets. I was induced at 41 weeks with Madison. I was in labor for about seven hours and then was told the baby's heartrate was dropping and they needed to do a c-section. They said they would do it then or we could wait awhile but then it would be an emergency e-section. We didn't want an emergency section so we opted to do it then. I was so disappointment that I didn't get my natural birth. I was so frustrated that I had to be cut open and now I would have a huge scar and a lot of pain. I had a hard time nursing so that added to my frustration. I was in pain, sleep deprived, frustrated and completely disappointed in myself. The first weeks were completely a blur to me, I just remembered crying so much!

I'm worried that I will get a repeat of that experience. I'm praying that I have a better experience. Especially since I will not have my husband there to take care of the baby when I need at break. And well to take care of me. He was a big motivation for me to keep nursing, I wanted to stop and he kept me going! I'm praying for an easy labor, that Delana will come as close to natural as possible and be healthy. I want to avoid a c-section at all cost but know that it might not be possible.

I'm not going to dwell on what labor and delivery might be like, I know that God has it all worked out. What I'm thinking about is Delana. I often wonder what she is doing and how she looks all squished up in there. Laney probably weighs around 4.5 pounds and is 19 inches long. My weekly email for this weeks tells how fair skin babies are often born with blue eyes though it maybe not be their final eye color. I'm fairly certain that Delana will have blue eyes since I have blue eyes, Paul has blue eyes, and Maddie also has blue eyes. I'm wondering what color her hair will be. My ultrasound showed that she does have hair! I wonder if it will be black hair like Maddie. Maddie was born with a full head of thick black hair that fell out and grow back blonde. Which was really funny to me because I when I thought about what she would look like I thought she would have brown hair and it turned blonde. I'm excited to see what she looks like, soon I will know.

Mommy's Little Helper

I made some friendship bread last night and was cleaning up the kitchen. I left the kitchen for a couple minutes and came back to this:

Maddie washing the dishes. "What are you doing?" She looked at me and smiled "see I CAN wash the dishes!" Yep I guess you can, so I let her finish the last couple of things. (nothing breakable) Oh it's so exciting that she wants to do the dishes, you know since she will not want to do them in a few years.