32 Weeks

Eight weeks to go. Wait, is that right? It sure is but it doesn't really seem possible. Eight weeks really doesn't seem like a long time but if you say two months it seems a little longer. Two months seem further away. July is only a day away, which means Maddie will be a first grader in 27 days. My little baby girl is going to be a big first grader. We have been reading books and working on other school related stuff. Not as much as I was planning on but I guess a little is better than nothing.

Getting back to the pregnancy related part of this post.... my little buggy now weighs about four pounds and is about 18.9 inches long (head to heel). We are still discussing the name. As of right now her name is still Delana Grace. The other name we are discussing it Isabella Grace. I find myself thinking.... "I wonder what Isabelle is doing right now?" In my mind I refer to her as Isabelle but Paul and I are still talking and praying that we will know which name to use. I don't know why it's so hard to pick a name. I knew that I loved Madison when I got pregnant with her, I had to talk Paul into it. He hated the name until around four months or so. One day I was going through my list of names (Madison was always on it) except one day. I had listed all my names and then Paul was like "oh I kind of like Madison." Then we were finished. At least with the first name, the name we had was Madison Grace. Later on we changed the middle name to Rose. It was prefect! This time I'm almost 99% sure the middle name will be Grace, it has meaning this time.

Priorities....... why can't I get them straight?

I keep thinking to myself that I NEED to exercise. I'm really don't want to gain 35 pounds like I did when I was pregnant with Madison. As of right now, 31 weeks I have gained 10 pounds which sounds really good. However I have looked at my chart from when I was pregnant with Madison. At 31 weeks I had only gained 14 pounds. BUT I gained 21 pounds in the last 10 weeks. (Maddie was born at 41 weeks.) I DO NOT, repeat DO NOT want to gain 20 pounds in the next 10 or less weeks. I would like to stick with a 15-20 pound weight gain. I'm trying not to worry about it too much but I am. I need to workout and stick with healthy eating and if I still end up gaining 35 pounds I will be fine. As long as I'm doing what I should be and I still gain more than the 15-20 I was shooting for I will think that is what my body was supposted to gain. Exercising is being added to the top of my priority list. I can do it. I just have to get with the program!!

To Everything There Is A Season

Ecclesiastes 3
1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.

The verse that stuck with me after Bible study. When it was brought up in class I was reminded of the clock that was near our house in Michigan. I remember not wanting to really move from Michigan, especially to California. I had never been to California and we were moving out there with no home while for us. I came across this clock and remembered that there is "a time for everything." We were uprooting and it was time to trust in God to lead the way.

I decide to read all of Chapter 3 when I got home:

14 I've also concluded that whatever God does, that's the way it's going to be, always. No addition, no subtraction. God's done it and that's it. That's so we'll quit asking questions and simply worship in holy fear. 15 Whatever was, is. Whatever will be, is. That's how it always is with God.

Whatever has happened or will happen God has planned it that way. I'm to worship and give thanks in all circumstances, although it's not always easy.

31 Weeks

I will be meeting my little one in such a short time. My pregnancy this time has been completely different than when I was pregnant with my first daughter. I was so excited and everything seemed so easy. I have felt like I have been on a roller coaster ride with this baby. I told Paul when I first found out I was pregnant I had a horrible feeling that I would loose the baby. I had horrible morning sickness along with three or four bleeding issues in the first trimesters. I thought I had lost the baby twice, it was so scary. I think that after that I had a hard time connecting with the baby cause I kept thinking something bad would happen. We found out we were having a little girl and I was disappointed. Since we had no names picked out we decided that we needed to talk about girl names. Paul's favorite name was Isabella Grace, which I didn't like because it was too popular. Which is funny since Madison was like number three the year she was born and it was my number one name. Madison's choice was Sophia Annabelle. I really didn't have a name I really liked, if fact nothing stuck out. At one point I talked about Chloe, Paul agreed to it. We didn't announce it but it was proabably because I change my mind only a few hours later. We said we wanted a name by the end of May because of family circumstances. We had a name........ Delana Grace, nickname Laney. I loved Laney and that helped us come up with Delana but now a month later I'm wondering if it's the right name. I have been thinking a lot about names and Isabella has really grown on me. I haven't discussed my name frustration with Maddie at all. However on Father's Day we sat out on the patio having our little picnic and she said "We should name the baby Bella, Isabella. You could have her and when you talk to daddy tell him you named her Isabella." I told her that I can't do that, that is something Daddy and I have to talk about together first. So we are talking of possibly changing the name to Isabella Grace. I guess it is very possible that we will still be talking about names until I'm on my way to the hospital. Possibly while I'm in the hospital. I'm so indecisive and I'm annoying myself.

My little buggy is getting so big, she is probably around 3.5 pounds and is about 11 3/4 inches long crown to rump or full length is about 18 inches long. It almost seems crazy to think that she will be here in only about two months. Time is going by pretty fast. Some days seem to crawl by but then I look back and see that time is going quick fast.

The last couple of weeks I have been having a hard time sleeping. I just can't sleep. In fact it's quarter after two right now. Tired, not really. It's a little annoying but I figure I'll probably be up at this time in a few months and I might as well get used to it. I'm guessing I will not be getting really good sleep for a long time now. Probably not until the baby is at least a few months old or longer if she is like her sister.

Happy Father's Day

Happy Father's Day!

I had these taken for Paul for part of his Father's Day present, all of his girls.

Doctor's Appointment for 30 weeks

I went to my doctor's appointment today, alone. It was strange sitting there all by myself, my friends said she would watch Maddie. I'm glad she did because I had to wait like 45 minutes. But other than the long wait it when good. I'm measuring right on and I didn't gain any weight which is good. The other thing I'm concerned about right now is my op record of my c-section with Maddie. They need the record to clear me for a VBAC. It wasn't in my record so I had to fill out a request for them to get it. I'm praying that it isn't lost because I'm guessing if they don't get it they will not clear me for the VBAC. I thought I was already cleared but now this comes up with only about 10 weeks to go. I'm trying to be positive but things don't tend to work out for me. Especially lately. So hopefully they will be able to find it.

30 Weeks

I'm now 30 weeks along and baby Delana will be here in 10 weeks. How exciting!
Delana is about 15.7 inches long and weighs about 3 pounds. Wow she is really growing.

A Little Girl Time

Madison and I drove up to La Jolla after the ultrasound to go to Cozymel's for chicken tacos. Since we were already there I figure we might as well drive by the beach.

Looking Into the Womb~ Delana Grace

Madison and I went to have an ultrasound done with morning. A couple days ago I thought it would be a good idea for Father's Day. I wanted to have the ultrasound and get some good pics for Daddy. Well she gave us some good ones. I'm so happy that she let us see her face. Guess what she looks just like Maddie. I'm going to put a picture of Madison (4 days old). Look at how close they look. OH... Delana also has hair. The ultrasound tech took a pic and pointed it out to me. I'm totally excited to share these pictures. AND can't wait to meet Laney.


Here's Maddie~ 4 days old

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Some progress is better than no progress.

29 Weeks

77 Days to go!!! That's pretty much it!! Waiting.... Waiting... and more Waiting.

Baby is probably around 15 inches from head to heel and weighs around 2 and a half pounds!

When God Speaks

I'm a stay at home mom and I have had my moments when I wonder if this is really what I'm suposed to do. I'm I really being called to be a stay at home mom/wife. Are you sure that God hasn't given me another path to follow. Maybe one where everything I do get reconized, when I can be promoted? I emailed my husband last Saturday night, "honey I don't think God has a plan for me." A stay at home mom, could this really be it. Maybe there is more. I think he might have forgot me. He really has nothing planned for me but for me to wonder and wait. I'm useless and have nothing to give. My hubby wrote me back, "God does have a plan for you and he hasn't forgotten you. The devil wants you think that you have no purpose, think God has forgetten you but HE HASN'T forgotten you." I read that Saturday night and gave little thought to it.

Sunday morning we arrived at church. Pastor Tim's sermon that day was on Direction. "If you are looking for direction in your life you need to pray for God to direct you. Prepare yourself to receive direction from him and once you have received it..... THANK HIM." As soon as he said the topic for today was direction I almost cried. Then as he went on he said "the devil will make you think that God is not working in you, that he doesn't have a plan for you and you should take action." I thought Paul just said that to me last night. I listened as he continued on.... Jeremiah 29:11-14 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity.

Jeremiah 29:11 is my favorite verse because I love to remind myself that God has a plan for my life. I do not know what his plans hold for my life but he knows the whole story from beginning to end. He is the author of my life and he holds my life is his hands. I also love it because it reminds me that God's plans for me are plans to prosper and not for harm even though it doesn't always seem that way. I read Jeremiah 29:11, Saturday night but I actually had read though to verse 14 that night. Now here I was sitting in church while Pastor read this verse to me. Knowing that I went to church that day to hear that message. God hears me, he cares for me, and he has my best interest in mind even when I don't know it. The part that keep sticking out to me was, you will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.... I will be found by you. I went home and shared with Paul what happened at church. I started to pray everyday asking God to share his plan and reading my Bible.

Wednesday night after I got home from churh I had to checked a message board I have only looked on the day I signed up a few months ago. I was scrolling down and started to read.

1st Timothy 2:15

However, women will be saved by having children, if they continue to have faith, love, and holiness, along with good judgment.
There is nothing holier than conceiving, gestating and giving life...You are surrounded by the love of many, including all these sisters...and you are full of love for your babies and your family...You have demonstrated good judgement through every decision you've made this pregnancy, with all the plans you made in anticipation. ..Now it's time for Faith to kick in...

This is huge for me since I'm due in 12 weeks, I'm attemping a VBAC, and for those of you who know me you know the rest of the story. I have done all I can do and now it is time for me to trust God to work out the details. It also made me think that having children and raising them is a huge purpose in life. That I should be thankful that God gave me these children to raise and also to be with them everyday of their lives. A stay at home mom/wife is a worthy purpose, I'm thankful God choose me to be a mommy and wife. I also realize that being a stay at home mom and wife allows me to be able to be active in my families' lives but it also gives me a chance to reach out to my extend family, friends, and church.

Inspiration for Today

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28 Weeks

The end is in sight....... I start my third trimester today. YAY! I only have 12 weeks to go. I'm so excited that I only have 12 weeks left, which really doesn't seem long at all to me because I know that shortly after that I will be welcoming my husband home.

Delana weight about two and a quarter pounds, measures 14.8 inches from the top of her head to her heel. She now has eyelashes and can blink her eyes.