Happy Veterans Day

Thank you to all who have served this great nation. And also to those currently serving.... "Thank you!"

Princess and Ladybug~Day Twenty-three

My girls chillin', taking it easy this morning.

Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity to accept

the things I cannot change;

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;

accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;

taking, as HE did, this sinful world as it is,

not as I would have it;

trusting that HE will make all things

right if I surrender to HIS Will;

that I may be reasonably happy

in this life and supremely happy with HIM

forever in the next.

AMEN

-Reinhold Niebuhr

Hi Daddy

Day Twenty-Two

Chubby Dubby

Delana~3 Weeks

I'm getting the hang of it now but still learning to function on less sleep. We dropped Madison off at school this morning and came home to nap. I woke up after the nap and looked at the clock. Oh no Maddie is going to be late this morning we over slept. A minute later I realized that we had already taken her to school. I'm losing it! I think the lack of sleep is finally catching up with me. I'm looking forward to the up coming break for Maddie because that means I can go back to sleep after feeding Delana instead of getting up and getting Maddie ready for school. It will be nice. Of course I will have to find a way to entertain Maddie. Should be easy enough.

Delana~Day Twenty

Here's a two for one.

Delana content... this is how she looks most of the time.

and not so happy. I believe she was doing some "work" there which doesn't make her happy.

Delana~Day Nineteen

I almost forget to do the picture for today... 11:00 pm

NIGHT! NIGHT!

Getting On Track

I'm so frustrated with myself right now. I keep thinking that I want to start exercising but I just can't do it. I'm freaking out because Delana isn't on a schedule. She does eat around the same time everyday but sometime she sleeps more or wants to eat more. I am freaked out about going for a walk because I'm thinking she might get hungery and scream for the half an hour I'm gone. That would be super stressful for me. Nursing is convient yet also has it's drawbacks like, making it harder for someone to babysit. Right now I'm trying to figure it out but I just don't feel like I'm doing a very good job. I'm doing good with the way things are now but I want to add in time for exercise and cleaning everyday. It's not working! I also want to be able to get a shower in everyday and preferably around the same time everyday. I'm thinking that I might be expecting to much too soon but I swear there are ladies who do it! I'm just not one of them. I am trying, I feel like I can do it but it's just not working. Am I supposed to try harder or wait for it to work out on it's own?

My First Siggy

Biggest Loser~ Getting on the Ban Wagon

Madison and I watched the Biggest Loser tonight, we have watched the other seasons together too. I recorded the second hour so we could watch it together on Thursday night or tomorrow after school. I'm excited for this season because I know that I can now begin my own weight loss journey. I'm no longer pregnant so I can lose weight. I'm nursing so I will have to make sure that I'm still eating enough and don't over do it. While I was still pregnant I ran some numbers. If I lose ONLY a pound for the next year I will be at the exact weight I was when I met Paul, which wasn't super skinny but I felt good at that weight. I would be twenty pounds over my ideal weight, the hight side of the ideal weight. My ideal weight according to Weight Watchers is 117 to 146 pounds. Quit honestly I think I might look sick if I weighed 117 pounds, but who knows. If I lost one and a half pounds over the next year I would reach my goal weight according to me and also be in my ideal weight range.

Now the qestion comes....... how will I achieve this goal? Since I am not even three weeks postpartum I don't want to over due it so WALKING! I'm going to start out by just walking Madison to school. Walking her to school is about a mile and a half. I'm also going to do Weight Watchers online. I will add to the workouts a little at a time, working up tothree or four mile walks. I will also throw in some workouts on the ellipitical trainer and strenght trainning. I will test this out and make adjustments as needed. Here I go..... at this time next I will be at my goal!

Maddie' Hair Cut

Madison's hair is a long and tangled. It has been stressful getting her ready in the mornings since Delana is nursing when we are getting her ready for school. I have been brushing her tangled her with one hand which she has not complained about. Plus she has a few added layers of hair since she decided to cut it herself awhile ago. I decided yesterday morning that we needed to get it trimmed. I told her she could have it the same way it was but it just needed to be cut a little so it wouldn't be so tangled. She said that was fine. I brought her to get her hair cut after school and she said she wanted to get it cut like mine. I will be getting my hair cut again next week. I said that's fine but if you decide you don't like it you can't put the hair back on, alright? Yep! So here is the new do.

Air Dry

Madison's Hair Straightened

Thumb Sucker~Day

Little Cheeks~Day Seventeen

All of Daddy's Girls~Day Sixteen

Delana's first day of church was today. She did great,

slept the whole time but 30 minutes to eat.

Mommy and Lana~Day Fifteen

Bath Time~Two Weeks

Delana got her first bath today. Madison was the photographer and also helped with the bath a little too. Delana didn't like the water but liked Madison rubbing the lotion on.

Looking at the Scale

Yesterday I weighed myself...... I'm at my pre-pregnancy weight............. YAY!

When I had checked into the hospital I was at a twenty pound gain. A few days before I was at a twenty-five pound gain. I was only told to gain fifteen pounds but I am glad that even though i went over everything was fine. ( Seeing I lost twenty pounds in less than two weeks.) I think that I am going to start walking next week, maybe a mile or two day. I don't want to overdo it but I think it will help me feel better to exercise. I am trying for four days a week. I need to work on toning and arms. Carrying the infant carrier is work.... lol. Wish me luck!!

Red Hair... huh?

I was noticing that Delana's hair has lightened up some and it has an auburn tint. Will she have red hair? Paul's grandma had red hair, as did mine. We will see.

Sister Sister~Day Thirteen

Chubby Dubby~Day Twelve

Belly Button~Day Eleven

Delana's umbilical cord fell off last night, now she has a cute belly buton. This morning I told Madison to look at Delana's belly. "It fell off! Now we get to give her a real bath."

Sleepy Head~Day Ten

Sent From Heaven~Day Nine

Precious~Day Eight

One Week Old

Tiny Hands~ Day Six

Pretty Baby Girl~Day Six

Blowing Bubbles~Day Five

Sissy Time~Day Four

Three Days~ Smile

Delana's Home~Day Two

Delana is home. It seems strange being at home, something is missing..... the Daddy! I still can't believe she is finally here.

Madison is in love and wants to play with Delana. She went upstairs and got a few of the baby toys and laid a blanket out, put the toys on it. Of course I had to tell herr that she will not be doing much playing for awhile.

Going Home~Day Two

We are finally on our way home! Delana had to stay extra night since we were waiting for the results of her 48 hr culture to come back. Negitive! Janey (my sil) came and got us. She has been a God send, helping me out with everything.

One Day Old

Delana with family friends, Wayne and Jayme. Jayme drove me to the hospital, she was only speeding a little. She didn't have to deliver the baby. LOL

I little interesting bit o' news: they babysat Madison when Paul returned from the deployment last year...... Now we have Delana :-)

Delana Day~Birthday

Big Sister Maddie meeting Delana.

Look at my baby.

Delana Grace

Delana Grace is here!!! On August 27th, the day before my induction was scheduled I went to bed around 10:00 so that I could get a good night rest since I knew that it would be a long time before I would get a good night sleep since I would have a baby the next night. Or at least be in the hosptial, which still would not be a good night sleep. I had wrote Paul and told him the plan. I said I am being induced tomorrow night this is not going to happen on it's own so I'm going to get one good night of sleep. He was like don't say that it could still happen.

At 10:30 I woke up to pee and had a horrible cramp but I went back to sleep. HOWEVER at 11:00 I woke up with a horrible cramp that wasn't going away. It was a lot of pressure and everytime I felt that pressure I had the urge to number two. I was like this might be it. I went downstair since Maddie was sleeping in my bed and I didn't want to wake her. I also wanted to use a contraction counter that I found online to count contrations. I started counting the contractions a little after 11:00. By 1:30 am the cramps were only about 4 minutes apart and I decided it was a good idea to call my "crew". I called my two friends and sister-in-law, they were all here at the same time. My sister in law took Maddie to her house and we were off to the hospital. We started driving and the contractions were horrible. I was thinking I can't believe that I had prayed for this... to go into labor on my own and be in all this pain. But I was now on way to the hospital. I was giving directions on how to get there... "let's take the toll road, it's faster." We stopped and paid the toll and we were off. Jayme was telling me to breathe. I couldn't breath it hurt too much. I was watching the clock, they were coming three minutes apart from what I could tell. We made it to the hospital and we had to show our IDs (military hospital), then I was like Allison doesn't have an ID so Jayme yelled back to tell them she was with us. We rolled up to the ER and they got a wheel chair. I couldn't get out of the van because I was in so much pain and I was telling them that. Allison was like you are going to have pain so you have to get out. Alright I was out and we were on the way to labor and delievery and the sky walk seem to be a mile long. I yelled at the guy pushing the wheelchair...... "can we go a little faster?" We went a little faster but it still seem like we were moving slow but I remember seeing Jayme walking quickly next to me. We finally made it to L&D. They got me in a room and I was filling out paper work while I was having contrations which was annoying me. They finally checked me and I was 9cm. I thought they said 6cm and was thinking it would never end but 9... wooo whoo. I was so close! They ended up breaking my water. It was time to push. The baby's heart rate had dropped and they said we have to get her out. In six contractions she was out. OUCH! OMG.... I did it! Thank you GOD, I did it! Delana was here and I did it, I got to have the VBAC that I had been praying for six and a half years. My body did it! God was with me and he heard my request...... my baby came into the world the way that I had prayed that she would come. The way God had designed them to come. All the hate I had for my body for letting me down with Madison's birth melted away. I loved my body, myself and was thankful for this experience. My hubby wasn't there but God provided me with people to be with me and support me. As I was getting stiches all of this was running through my mind. I'm truly blessed. I'm so thankful for the ones who have been praying for me and the birth, the ones who were at the birth.

*** A side note. When Paul and I were trying to pick a date to be induced it was today.... September 7th! However I can't image waiting this long for her to be here. Also I will be back dating this entry to the day Delana was born... August 28th. Today she is 10 days old! :)

Induction.... SCHEDULED

I'm overdue....... GREAT. I went to the doctor on Monday morning, the day before my dute date knowing that I would be scheduling an indcution date. Which I was hoping to advoid but apparently I can't since this kid doesn't want to come out. Even all the praying, walking, swimming and even having my membranes stripped is not making her want to come out! My doctor asked me if I wanted to come in to be induced the next day, my due date. NO.... I really really want this to happen on it's own. I feel like have to give it a little more time to happen. So I scheduled an appointment for September 1st. On August 25th my due date my friend who is a ob nurse at my hospital calls me at 2000 (8:00 pm) to see if I want to come in and be induced at 2100 (9:00 pm) that night! Ah no..... I was actually thinking about it but I would have to call at least three people to arrange this type of thing. If my hubby were home I would have discussed it with him and probably did it because I wouldn't have to call all the other people. So I turned that down and agreed to come in on Friday night. I was super excited until I hung up the phone and then I was a mess. It's not going to happen on it's own.... AGAIN! I'm totally annoyed with my body because it's NOT doing what it should be, which is to get this baby out without me having to be drugged up. Wednesday night I was fine with it. This morning I'm just frustrated! As crazy as it sounds this is part of the reason for waiting 6 years to have another kid, I did not want to have this dissappointment again. I know that a lot of people don't think it's a big deal to be incuded but I DO! It's not what I want. I have always wanted a natural birth and it's not going to happen. It happens for others but not for me. People are like you still end up with a healthy baby in the end be happy. I will be happy...... smiling on the outside and feeling like I failed yet again on the inside.

Tooth Gone