When God Speaks

I'm a stay at home mom and I have had my moments when I wonder if this is really what I'm suposed to do. I'm I really being called to be a stay at home mom/wife. Are you sure that God hasn't given me another path to follow. Maybe one where everything I do get reconized, when I can be promoted? I emailed my husband last Saturday night, "honey I don't think God has a plan for me." A stay at home mom, could this really be it. Maybe there is more. I think he might have forgot me. He really has nothing planned for me but for me to wonder and wait. I'm useless and have nothing to give. My hubby wrote me back, "God does have a plan for you and he hasn't forgotten you. The devil wants you think that you have no purpose, think God has forgetten you but HE HASN'T forgotten you." I read that Saturday night and gave little thought to it.

Sunday morning we arrived at church. Pastor Tim's sermon that day was on Direction. "If you are looking for direction in your life you need to pray for God to direct you. Prepare yourself to receive direction from him and once you have received it..... THANK HIM." As soon as he said the topic for today was direction I almost cried. Then as he went on he said "the devil will make you think that God is not working in you, that he doesn't have a plan for you and you should take action." I thought Paul just said that to me last night. I listened as he continued on.... Jeremiah 29:11-14 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity.

Jeremiah 29:11 is my favorite verse because I love to remind myself that God has a plan for my life. I do not know what his plans hold for my life but he knows the whole story from beginning to end. He is the author of my life and he holds my life is his hands. I also love it because it reminds me that God's plans for me are plans to prosper and not for harm even though it doesn't always seem that way. I read Jeremiah 29:11, Saturday night but I actually had read though to verse 14 that night. Now here I was sitting in church while Pastor read this verse to me. Knowing that I went to church that day to hear that message. God hears me, he cares for me, and he has my best interest in mind even when I don't know it. The part that keep sticking out to me was, you will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.... I will be found by you. I went home and shared with Paul what happened at church. I started to pray everyday asking God to share his plan and reading my Bible.

Wednesday night after I got home from churh I had to checked a message board I have only looked on the day I signed up a few months ago. I was scrolling down and started to read.

1st Timothy 2:15

However, women will be saved by having children, if they continue to have faith, love, and holiness, along with good judgment.
There is nothing holier than conceiving, gestating and giving life...You are surrounded by the love of many, including all these sisters...and you are full of love for your babies and your family...You have demonstrated good judgement through every decision you've made this pregnancy, with all the plans you made in anticipation. ..Now it's time for Faith to kick in...

This is huge for me since I'm due in 12 weeks, I'm attemping a VBAC, and for those of you who know me you know the rest of the story. I have done all I can do and now it is time for me to trust God to work out the details. It also made me think that having children and raising them is a huge purpose in life. That I should be thankful that God gave me these children to raise and also to be with them everyday of their lives. A stay at home mom/wife is a worthy purpose, I'm thankful God choose me to be a mommy and wife. I also realize that being a stay at home mom and wife allows me to be able to be active in my families' lives but it also gives me a chance to reach out to my extend family, friends, and church.