31 Weeks

I will be meeting my little one in such a short time. My pregnancy this time has been completely different than when I was pregnant with my first daughter. I was so excited and everything seemed so easy. I have felt like I have been on a roller coaster ride with this baby. I told Paul when I first found out I was pregnant I had a horrible feeling that I would loose the baby. I had horrible morning sickness along with three or four bleeding issues in the first trimesters. I thought I had lost the baby twice, it was so scary. I think that after that I had a hard time connecting with the baby cause I kept thinking something bad would happen. We found out we were having a little girl and I was disappointed. Since we had no names picked out we decided that we needed to talk about girl names. Paul's favorite name was Isabella Grace, which I didn't like because it was too popular. Which is funny since Madison was like number three the year she was born and it was my number one name. Madison's choice was Sophia Annabelle. I really didn't have a name I really liked, if fact nothing stuck out. At one point I talked about Chloe, Paul agreed to it. We didn't announce it but it was proabably because I change my mind only a few hours later. We said we wanted a name by the end of May because of family circumstances. We had a name........ Delana Grace, nickname Laney. I loved Laney and that helped us come up with Delana but now a month later I'm wondering if it's the right name. I have been thinking a lot about names and Isabella has really grown on me. I haven't discussed my name frustration with Maddie at all. However on Father's Day we sat out on the patio having our little picnic and she said "We should name the baby Bella, Isabella. You could have her and when you talk to daddy tell him you named her Isabella." I told her that I can't do that, that is something Daddy and I have to talk about together first. So we are talking of possibly changing the name to Isabella Grace. I guess it is very possible that we will still be talking about names until I'm on my way to the hospital. Possibly while I'm in the hospital. I'm so indecisive and I'm annoying myself.

My little buggy is getting so big, she is probably around 3.5 pounds and is about 11 3/4 inches long crown to rump or full length is about 18 inches long. It almost seems crazy to think that she will be here in only about two months. Time is going by pretty fast. Some days seem to crawl by but then I look back and see that time is going quick fast.

The last couple of weeks I have been having a hard time sleeping. I just can't sleep. In fact it's quarter after two right now. Tired, not really. It's a little annoying but I figure I'll probably be up at this time in a few months and I might as well get used to it. I'm guessing I will not be getting really good sleep for a long time now. Probably not until the baby is at least a few months old or longer if she is like her sister.